One Gamer's Thoughts

My observations, rants, and philosophies on life and gaming in general

Monday, September 06, 2010

I'm frustrated

I got a promotion at work. That only took 3 years. It's temporary, but it'll be enough for now. With the promotion comes a lot of unnecessary pressure, I feel. See, I've been able to get away with just working in the back room for 3 years, but with this promotion I have to move beyond that. I have to work at the cash registers. That's scary! Not really, but there are a bunch of rules you have to remember and follow to the book or else you could get fired over a free panty. I've seen it happen. Not only that, but I have to be even more involved in some behind the scenes aspects. Payroll, backroom organization, walking associates out of the store... My manager has a great deal of faith in me. She's been attempting to "pass the torch" for awhile. She talks to me about store layout, marketing decisions, and a lot of technical jargon, but I just nod or agree politely. I have no idea what she's talking about sometimes! The big change will be that I'm directly above other backroom people. I have to manage them! At first I didn't think it would be an issue because I practically do it all the time, but a new hire has convinced me otherwise. I've tried to train her. I've tried to show her the best techniques. I've been keeping a smile on my face. She doesn't listen to me. Blatantly. It's starting to piss me off. I've been really trying to avoid the power trip that has happened to a lot of other associates with new found powers, but she will be the one to push me there.

Did I mention I might have to miss school again? Yeah, with this promotion comes a lot more hours to work. School might not be possible. Without a car, there's no way I can do it. I've already accepted the promotion. Can I really afford to miss another year of school? No, absolutely not. But it looks like I'll have to miss this semester. It really sucks, but my hands are actually tied at this point. Let's go over this one more time: Without a car, I can go to school to take this (dumb) required class on Tuesdays and Thursdays riding my bike. The problem with that is I have to miss a day of work. If I miss a day of work, I'm making less money. With less money, I can't save up more money. If I can't save money, I can't buy a car. If I do happen to get a car, yes I will be able to go to work on Tuesdays as well as go to school, but I will be making less with less hours. Since I won't be making much money, I'm in danger of not paying my share of the rent, my cell phone bill, my internet, and on top of that car insurance and gas money. I simply can't afford it at this time. The only alternative is to get a car before school starts and driving to another campus for Monday Wednesday classes. I'll try my best, but it isn't looking likely

Moving on to other things, still without a car. I did actually check out the car I mentioned in the previous entry. It's a 1990 Nissan Sentra with 200k miles on it. Yeah... Gave it a test drive and it performed pretty well though. The big issue was that the speedometer was not working. He wanted $1500 for it. No dice. The blue book value for that car in excellent condition is $1200. It was in excellent shape otherwise, but I'm not paying $1500 to buy a car, then spend what could possibly be another fortune to fix the speedometer. Hey, it could happen. I'm thinking of it as a last resort car, since it probably isn't going anywhere anytime soon. The search continues.

I'll top this all off with a bit of girl "drama". I really like her. Like, really, really like her. We worked together 2 years ago, and now she's back. She's awesome. I can't figure her out. That's normal. I was dumb yesterday and sent her a text message I probably shouldn't have. No response. Yeah, I could be done. I get to see her on Wednesday, maybe that clears some things up. I just don't know. I just want to give up. Hasn't happened yet, so it probably won't ever happen.

I'm being super emo about this, but I'm just really frustrated about everything. It's all downhill from here it seems. Let's hope not.