Random thought

After watching the Super Bowl whilst attempting to do my homework (attempting is the word!), I just thought to myself "Wow, I actually have wonderful friends who care about me". This is a real accomplishment for me, because it has taken me so long to acknowledge it. People who look out for me, people who comfort me, people who would cry for me... it was once something I believed wasn't possible at one point, but it's all coming together now.

Last Friday, I had a delightful conversation with a friend of mine on AIM. It made me realize the importance of just talking with others for venting purposes, not to mention how fun it is to interact with others (something I don't do often). She really is a sweet person, and at times its really hard to believe that she is 3rd in our class, but she always has time to help someone out. The time she spent talking to me really meant a lot, since it helped me to address some things about myself. Thanks sooooo much, you know who you are! Even though the convo was a day before my Bday, it was the best present I have ever recieved. You are truly appreciated

And with that said, I'm off to be lazy and stuff.

State of the Union

Whilst viewing the State of the Union Address, I had many conflicting thoughts swirling through my head. My ignorance was not helped due to the abundance of information flying toward me, but I managed to keep a somewhat straight face while the President did what he did best....

I'll leave that part up to you. I felt as though many things were being re-iterated with more emphasis this time around. We get that Iraq is on their way to being a democratic nation. We get that terrorists are "evil" people. We get that we as Americans constantly strive for freedom. What I feel that Bush doesn't get, however, is that this war will never end if we keep up this optimistic "We're winning" attitude. When one looks at the situation realistically, one can see that people like Bin Laden will not simply cease and desist because big America asked nicely. Bin Laden is fighting on a purely religious level, and persuasion will not likely work. Bin Laden will be here to fight us for many years to come unfortunately, so just strap into your seatbelts. This war will be a very bumpy ride

However, not everything is bad. I liked the new plan as far as supporting research towards finding better fuel resources. Oil prices are constantly going up, and while they may decrease shortly, over a few more years the price will steadily rise again due to the lack of fossil fuels. Electric, hydrogen, hell even solar powered cars are probably the safest bet towards a cleaner and less oil dependant earth.

And I admire Bush's new plan to raise education standards, since we are the dumbest country on the planet. Math and Science improvement is always a good thing though.

Overall, I have a newfound respect for Bush, but its only a matter of time before he screws up again. On a final note, was anyone else suprised at the lack of new words that Bush created?

Women...

Sometimes, I fear for the male population of the world. Women are crazy.

You know its true.

Although for all intents and purposes, women are an entertaining and fun bunch.

A couple of weeks ago (yeah, I haven't updated in a... oops) after a school evacuation due to a mercury spill (second time its happened at our school... in a row), I was "schooled" about the facts of life. Dating, nice guys(I'm a proud one, just for your info), what women look for, I got the works. Some of the info wasn't too new for me, but I feel I learned a lot from my female friends who schooled me, as well as learning more about their personality in general.

Then just yesterday, some new girl in my study hall just sat down and started talking to me and my friend while we were both playing chess (sounds nerdy, but my friend is far from being a nerd... not so much for myself). My friend definiteky had an ulterior motive, but I was just playing along as she asked question after question... and did she ask questions! I thought I was being interrogated after being found at the scene of some crime. "Are you going out with someone?", "Are you a virgin?", "Do you have any children?", "Do you want to go to college?"

Honestly, I felt a bit violated, but it was fun at the same time since I usually listen instead of speak. After all of these questions passed, I had to wonder if this is what it really took to get a significant other. I'm not entirely sure what I meant by that statement, since I already know the answer, but I'm just not getting something. I guess its just that teenage naivity.

In any case, I'm very excited for the coming weeks. My birthday is next week, and Valentines Day is the week after. Hopefully, I will have $100 to spend on women for V-Day. Why? Just because I can, and I figure its nice to instill hope into those women without a significant person in their life. Also, gift giving is just one way to express how I appreciate the women in my life, for positive or negative impact. That and I'm just generous in general. Does that make me crazy?

BBC NEWS | Middle East | Text: 'Bin-Laden tape'

BBC NEWS | Middle East | Text: 'Bin-Laden tape'

For some reason, I feel a newfound respect of Bin Laden. Don't get me wrong: Bin Laden is a horrible, horrible person, but after reading said speech, its good to see that he isn't a complete maniac. Perhaps it just comes with age. I was in 7th grade when the Sept 11 attacks occured, and to this day I really don't understand the true and full significance of the event. The way Bin Laden speaks is very influential and seems calm, despite his obvious rage towards the US government. One person on a message board I frequent even said that his way of speaking almost made him seem like the good guy.

Nonetheless, this just has to stop. Unfortunately, violence is just a way of progression in this world, but this war has barely led to any kind of progression. We are fighting a losing battle in many ways. I'm all for supporting the troops, my best friends father is fighting in the war, and God forbid if anything did happen to him. Supporting the troops to me also means insuring their safety and the only way to do that is to pull out immediately. Even Bin Laden opted for a truce situation, but I guess Bush's pride isn't gonna let that happen.

Enough is enough. Let this end...

Tears

She's crying. Her face is flush, her makeup now a disaster, and she can't stop. I walk over and try to find out what is the matter, but to no avail. She's crying...

Am I the only one who just stops in utter fear when I see a woman crying? Its almost unbearable to me. That person who was always bubbling over with personality, always laughing and smiling and then bam,. Its just a depressing situation.

It breaks my heart to see a woman in such a distress...

Please, don't cry...

Peace?

My older sister had left, its been raining all day, I've been sitting on my ass for 7 hours.

Perfect. Peaceful. Relaxing.

I haven't done a damn thing this 3 day weekend, yet, I have 3 papers I have to write. Procrastination is such an evil process. A continuing cycle, if you will. Sure, perhaps the job gets done, but after much procrastination, it just gets pushed back farther and farther and farther....

Then you realize that your life has been reduced to nothing but staring at the TV with a pack of cheetos by your side as you struggle to reach the remote on the other side of the couch.

Pathetic. Yet, if this vicious cycle of procrastination continues, I fear that is how I will end up...

The Ladder Theory

The Ladder Theory

Ahhh, never have true words been spoken in such a well thought (even though satirical) article/theory. This thing basically describes my love life in a nutshell.

Basically, the theory states that love is based on a priority scale, represented by a ladder. In the male ladder, the higher up a woman on a ladder, the more said male wants to sleep with the woman. Although, I myself would rather change the wording (hell, I haven't even had a g/f yet, why would I be in such a rush for sex?), I feel its dead on.

Women, however, have 2 ladders: The ladder mentioned above, and the friends ladder. So very, very true. Beneath the ladder is an abyss, which represents how the relationship dissolves due to no more attachment. A friend may jump off of the friends ladder to the regular ladder, but if rejected, the former friend will fall into the abyss.

A funny and rather true article. Makes you wonder how high up on either ladder you're on with friends of the opposite sex.